Holding Briana!

Yesterday I was fortunate enough to be able to hold Briana for the first time. It was amazing. I have never felt anything like that ever before, I was over whelmed. When the nurses placed her on my chest she opened her eyes and looked up at me I really felt like she now knew who I was. I felt like Briana now understands that I am her mom and not just some crazy woman who comes and visits her every day. While we were sitting there I would sing to her and just talk to her and Briana would look and me and make these little noises, she sounded so content. This was a moment I knew I would never forget.

Paul did not come with the day I held Briana because he was not feeling quite well. Neither one of us can afford to be sick right now nor do we want to risk getting Briana sick. I wanted Paul to hold Briana as soon as he could because I wanted him to experience the same things I did.

Paul and I went to visit Briana at the hospital today and I asked the nurse if Paul would be able to hold Briana, and she said yes! I was so excited for Paul and he was too. It was quite amazing to see the nurse place Briana on Paul’s chest and watch him hold her. I was trying not to get too teary eyed. Just to get to see Paul bond with his daughter really made my day.

I also was able to hold Briana again, also incredible, it never gets old. She still just looks at me with her blue eyes and I melt. Once my time was done the nurses placed her back in her bed and I was able to change her diaper. And she just looked at us which makes it that much harder to leave. We love her so much and feel so blessed to have her in our lives.